Man this grown-up thing is TOUGH!!! Being in free-lance production, one has to harden to take the blows of being unemployed. You can receive praise and accolades up the waz, but it don't mean squat if you ain't bringing in the bucks.... Which brings me back to my questioning my life path and choices.
I'm not happy in production. Not because it isn't challenging or interesting, but because I'm disappointed that I haven't REALLY tried for something I LOVE. I'm good at production work. It's fast and about problem solving. I've been able to travel and meet amazing, hard-working,love-to-play people. But I'm in not way PASSIONATE about it.
So I've decided to move. Come September (giving myself enough time to research, plan and uphold my obligations as Maid of Honor) I will be uprooting myself and replanting somewhere new. Somewhere the arts are coveted, not considered a means to, or sub-par version of Hollywood fame. Somewhere I can be in the Great Outdoors regularly for both work and play. Somewhere my peers are about a slower paced, albeit meaningful, dedicated existence. I'm ready to create my own life in a place of my own choosing.
And it's scaring the CRAP out of me. :)
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